Sunday, February 17, 2013

Random Ramblings of a Crazy Woman!

Ughh, know that feeling when you enter a nail polish giveaway, like one where you REALLY want the polish or whatever and you lose? Yeah... xD I had a horrible day a bit after I came home yesterday with my parents. My mum and I had a fight which didn't end well, lets just say it was bad and yet again she blamed me for it. BHUINSRJGNB!

Also someone got one of those three drawer cube things from Micheals, I asked how much was it and hot damn is it expensive even with the half off coupon and I doubt I'd get lucky enough to have some cashier give me another half off to make it $16, well for me. xD Maybe I can keep new polishes in my extra hamper? Won't have a job till Abegael is in school. She is 9 and a half months so that won't be for a while. And maybe I can try to make a wall shelf thing, but I only have one wall thats flat, the rest is spikey. And the flat wall is where my daughters crib is, I'd only have one section to put maybe 3 of them at most. Some of you are probably thinking, "hey, what about else where in the house?" Yeah, if only. I'm a single mother, who breast feeds, who doesn't believe in daycares unless I work there but can't handle the hours with Abegaels horrible sleeping patterns, who has no one to baby sit for me that I can trust. FJHGUJTNHG! Oh to my point, I still with my parents, like my mother would let me move away and take Princess Abegael with me, lol. She can't live without my daughter, yet can't baby sit for more then an hour and a half. Anyway to my point, I am really running out of room. On my desk alone is 117 polishes, plus around 20 some treatments, top bases and all. Altogether without the decos, top bases, treatments...I have 390 organized on my desk, my daughters dresser since its some what huge and on my entertainment center. Yada yada!

Anyway the 6 polishes I posted on my facebook, plus the 4 I bought don't help since I got them before the fight with my mother. She is lucky a bond between child and mother is strong cause if someone else have gotten in the same fight with me, I'd be GONE! I really need a HUGE pick me up, like bad. D:

Yesterday where I got the Sinful Colors plus Fergie by wnw from main reason of going there was those new wet n wild polishes in those what I call lollipop bottles. I loooove unigue bottles and would love some if not all of them! But alas mine didn't have them. I have horrid luck. I go to a store where things are supposed to have something and BAM they don't have them. Like Milani's color statement lip sticks. I would love a few some how but NO stores have them around here, like NYAHHH. I can't buy online much cause my dad has trust issues with most sites. Wish I would atleast win one or two of their 30 lipsticks in 30 days think. Or was one of those lucky bloggers who got a set of red, pinks, corals, purples and nudes or whatever! They got these cute little lip make up bags too! Which I need a new one, bad, this one I am using is from when I was in 7th grade, I graduated June of 2010. You do the math, lol.

Oh I was about to post this but I forgot to add. When we left Walmart, while my dad was loading the van with the food, I was standing there, holding Abegael, my purse and the bag that had my neon polishes I posted on the page and some pants and a matching shirt for the one I for Abegael. I am able to open the door, but not to dig for my keys to open my dads van with all I was holding. The door was locked and I was telling my dad to open the door, meaning unlock it. Some kind kind lady came over and offered to open the door for me.<3 So nice, thats the first Random Act of Kindness that happened to me in person! It made my day, and that was before the fight with my mother I mentioned earlier.

Abegael is growing so much every day. It kills me some what inside, I don't want my baby to grow so fast! She is so smart, its like she knows that her Uncle is the reason I have to keep her up sometimes. xD She purposely claws his face, pulls his hair and bites him, chases him to bite him or launches herself to bite. xD That or his reactions make it like a game, lol. When I do shopping for her food and bring it all out to put away she gets so excited, even if she just ate, lol. <3 And she is trying to stand! Like pushes her arms like  a push up then puts one foot down then tries to get the other one the same to stand, but fails, I give her a week of doing this before she stands on her own without pulling herself up with something. <3

Oh how I can't wait till I'm done breast feeding, I realllly want to try the ACE pills I won three of, maybe that might help if I took one every other day and fight my body with my cravings on the days I didn't take one? xD Also I got one of those it works skinny wrap things, which I also hoooope it gives me AMAZING results. It kills me that technically I only lost around 9 pounds since I gave birth 9 and a half months ago. Damn depression spikes, damn stress and damn weird body changings! 50 pounds or so to lose this summer? I think so, lets see what I can do when I stop breast feeding. :o I miss being average weight, skinny and all. I used to wear size 9 skinny jeans from Hottopic, now? I can't wear a size 12 in normal jeans from jcpenneys... You all are like, thats not bad, thats like 3 pant sizes. If you shop at Hottopic you know that they run for skinny people mostly, their 9 is like a size 5 or 6 or something. xD Now, I'm obese, wear sweat pants, baggy clothes, yuck. I dislike my love handles and how my belly is like I am 5 months pregnant again, I am that big. (when I was pregnant I was HUGE) Like most worry about how their stretch marks look, well if I had my old body I wouldn't mind wearing a bikini with stretch marks, they show I went through alot to give birth to my beautiful Abegael.<3 YAY 59 lbs gained full term, 15 hours of labor, 3 hours of pushing with only a 15 minute break. Must have been my mums greatest moment cause she was there with me the whole time, also the 5 hours of labor BEFORE the hospital. So make that 20 hours of labor, lol. If you want my labor story, message me on my page on facebook if you are interested, I'd make a whole post for that.

Anyways, Abegael went down for a nap, so I'm going to relax some. Till next time. ;D


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